eh im just gonna stop using xanga, im prolly only gonna use it for a journal for my private entries or w.e.

so yea...byeee

-BriT

why is it that the busiest school weekend i will ever have this year, (finals) have to be full of hellllllla different things i want to do!!?

(*Note to self*)

ok well time to sort things out:

Friday: chillin after school, busy till....8 or 9?

Saturday: Work, then chillin....maybe around 6...after...finish all my hw and all my studying and my paper for english (impossible), then michelle's sleeping over.

Sunday: Go to the fair in Fc, all day...then maybe finish up the last of my hw...? and more last minute cramming...?

hmm...any other suggestions...?

eh well its gonna be busy. which is a lot better then being bored, i jus wish this was all one weekend during the sumemr when im bored an dont have anything to do!

-BriT

hypothetically speaking,

lets say your mom is in constant pain, when she walks, sleeps, sits, anything she does, her whole body is in pain...and lets say its because of...some bone cancer?

so she says she rather jus die now because of the intense pain she feels everyday, but shes tryin to "enlongate" her life, for you and your siblings (if u have any) but mainly for u (her son/daughter)

so at first u think. "whatever, shes over reacting." but then u hear her crying and moaning every night and day from the extreme pain she feels...now ur starting to wonder and pray...

would you pray(or hope for if ur not religious) that she stays alive becuase ur not physically or emotionally ready or stable for her passing, or do u pray that she rest in peace so she never has to suffer the pain...?

all hypothetically speaking ofcourse.

so anyways...leave a comment on what u would think or do...im just curious.

1ove

-BriT

i dont think any1 can ever have a "perfect" period of their life (i dont say "perfect life" beucase no1 can have a perfect whole life) (note: this is jus one of my random ramblings about life that i comes up to my mind and i want to think it out so i type it here, so dont think much of it bcuz it prolyl wont make sense) i dont think so bcuz if a person does have everything going perfect for them..lets say they have everything they want, w.e. their version of a "perfect" period is, then theyll, out of human nature, try to find something else thats wrong. (i kno that u prolyl have ur own opinion about what human nature is but like i said this is jus what i think..) liek from personal experiences...and jus from what i've learned..everytime i have something good...i always end up finding the wrong of soemthing else that i never thought about before...now i kno we all prolly already kno this...and this is obviously really cliche...but this thought is actually kinda sad..i mean...if we mostly kno that we can never actually achieve a perfect period...then why do most of us ( if not all) dream of the perfect period ...? its like we tease ourselves...or reach for something thats not there...and that we kno is never there...whats worse is that some of us live for our dreams.. so does that mean that we basically live for something thts not there?(yes of course we have dreams of things other than the perfect period of time in our life, but usually those things are the things that make a perfect period) hah...whats even more ironic is that the perfect period is not achievable bcuz of our own human nature...

eh..yea jus an elaborate thought...kinda corny but w.e. felt like writing something like that

comment if u have any feedback (not like any1 comments on my xanga anyways lol) yep..

its late, gnight

1ove

-BriT

wow.. ok so today was a busy day...haha but it was fun ..

so first i want to thank every1 who greeted me a happy birthday and especially the people who gave me presents and took the time to do that, lol wow i definetly wasnt expecting any of it, but i want u all to kno that i really appreciate it! so thank you soo much. special thanks go out to iRINA (u started everything! lol i shouldnt have told u in the beginning of the skewl year!haha, but thank you! and love u!) Charlotte (YOU o man ur crazy! u told HELLA ppl after irina told u! ur awful! lol but i love u and ur awesome, thank you for EVERYTHING!) Michelle (wow u definetly went OUT OF UR WAY with all of those presents! i love them ALL and i expecially love the things u made! thank you soo much forEVERYTHING as well, and I mean everything, not just today. U have been SUCH a supportive friend and I appreciate it SOO much!!) Alana (I love the card! But I told u not to worry about it!!! Lol well it was REALLY sweet of u to do that and I really do love it! Ur SOO sweet!) Kristie (girl..shit u did hella writing for me lol that prolly equaled to about 10 cards of writing! lol but yea..damn I loved it and its amazing how u can give me such a great gift without even having to physically GIVE it to me…I definetly felt special lol love u loser! P.S. oh and you were also the VERY first to greet me happy birthday, but next time, call on the dot instead of 15 minutes early! lol and don’t embarrass me so much by singing! lol) Steven (thank you too bro, for doing that whole BIG dedication to me, that also made me feel special lol I was honestly real shocked. Thanks for EVERYTHING our friendship alone is a good enough present for me (lol how cheesy does that sound) but yea…thanks again!)  and thanks to every1 else..i would list all of u but I don’t want to forget any1 so u should kno.

so yea..today was kewl...a lot better than i thought it would be, and it wouldnt have been this good without u all oso thanks again!

-BriT